I assume you’re asking advice on this? Either that, or you’re referring to me as one of those instructors and don’t feel comfortable actually talking to me about it. I could believe that, I love a good aggressively negative bit (just ask various members of Winslow.) I would have preferred to answer this directly to you as well, but Tumblr wont let me since it’s anonymous.
But, if you’re asking advice… I sincerely am sorry you feel this way! My advice would be to talk to the person or persons that you feel are being unfair/unnecessarily shitting on you. Really… just talk to them. I can almost guarantee that whoever it is is not trying to make you feel crappy, or trying to ruin improv for you. I would bet good money that they have no idea they’re having this effect on you. I can’t think of a single UCB teacher that wouldn’t want you to just pull them aside and go “Hey, this makes me feel shitty. It’s not cool. Lay off.” It might be intimidating, but I would be shocked if it didn’t affect the behavior.
I’m not entirely sure from your message, though, what form this is taking. You say cheap shots and jabs and verbal attacks… in notes on scenes? Outside of the context of a class? In general conversation? Is it someone doing an aggressive and unwelcome bit, or is it someone actively seemingly trying to insult you? Also you say you’ve always felt that way… does that mean you feel it in every class? Or just with some people? All of those things might have a different reaction. If it’s a class problem, you can talk to Johnny Meeks, the head of the training center. If it’s outside of that, then yeah, I think talk to the person. You won’t look pathetic. The WORST case scenario is that you learn for a fact that this person is a true blue asshole. And then you can write them off. But, realistically, I think it will help you be more comfortable in the long run.
I think it’s very possible, if you’re discussing specific elements of the movie. The 12 year production of it doesn’t need to impact the discussion of the acting or the cinematography etc, etc.
But, if you’re discussing the film as a whole, I think the context in which the film was made is crucial. The unique way it was created is as much a part of the movie as are the performances or the soundtrack, and to ignore it would be to purposefully ignore a major element of what makes the film special. It’d be like reviewing My Life In The Bush Of Ghosts without considering the way Byrne and Eno recorded it. Or talking about Spiral Jetty without considering how Smithson created it. Yes, you can purely discuss the finished product, but you’re missing something that is specific to that piece of art, that is also necessary to understand it. The way in which the work was made is part of the whole, so if you’re going to judge/discuss the whole, you have to consider that part.
Also, I have no idea why someone asked me this. But I’m MORE than happy to talk about it! Cuz I loved the hell out of Boyhood.
This weekend, as I was finishing up a show at 5:00 am in what is my tenth Del Close Marathon, I started trying to remember every show I’ve ever done at this insane event. This is the list of everything I can remember doing (including a couple I’ve still got to do today), and it’s a who’s who of ridiculous things for a grown man to spend time doing. Some of these only loosely fall under the definition of “show.”
I regret nothing.